I guess Fall isn’t really the time to talk about New Beginnings. Things aren’t really blooming, nothing has “sprung”, and the promise of summer isn’t around the corner (although I do greatly prefer Fall and Winter). However, with my blog, and in several other areas of my life, I’m definitely making New Beginnings.
And it feels good.
Among other things, I’ve reconnected with some old friends and more-than-friends and I’m infinitely glad about that. For some time, I wasn’t in a frame of mind to really allow other people, especially other people who knew me so well, into my life. My health and state of mind was such that I didn’t want people close to me, I didn’t want to reveal my weaknesses, my vulnerabilities, the problems that I was dealing with when all they had ever known me as was vibrant and vivacious. So, I kept my problems close to my chest, like a good hand of cards, and I only shared them with people who couldn’t do that much about it all, people who meant well but weren’t in any position to help me.
But, I now realize that there ARE people to help me, people who love me, people who can give me advice or take me out for Friday night dinner, people that I shut out and people that I want in my life again. I’m very fortunate that they will allow our lives to meld together again. It is a blessing.
I’m also referring to New Beginnings in my planning, in the plans for my future. I’ve sat stagnate for so long, presumably because of the health problems I’ve had but I’m at least some better now and have to get this blessing of a life I have on the road. I have to get it going, even if I’m not 100% sure which direction to take. ANY direction is better than NO direction. So, the plan for now is to go back to school to get my Master’s and teaching license for Secondary and Adult English and Art. I have all the academic creditentials for both English and Art from my undergraduate studies and, from the research that I’ve done on it all, I should only have several semesters to take some much-needed teaching courses. Has it been my life-long dream to teach? No, but I know that a government job is good as the retirement is nice and I can always do things I really want to do (yoga) on the side since the schedule is pretty nice too.
Speaking of yoga… a friend introduced me to some online introductory courses for yoga that I intend to take. There are three of them and while they are no replacement for a good, in-class intensive teacher training, I think they will be a very good foundation and they will at least get me started. I’m very excited about these classes and am eager to get started with them.
Other New Beginnings that I have up my sleeve? This blog. I’ve not been a very good blog host or blog friend lately. Sure, I posted up a swap that so many of you have been so gracious about signing up for. Other than that, however, I’ve not posted much and, even more than that, I’ve not been around to visit and comment on your blogs.
To be honest, I had about sixty or so blogs that I tried to get around to reading and commenting on each day. This is overwhelming. At some point, I realized that some of these bloggers were people who never read my own blog and if they did, they never commented so I had no interaction with them at all. I like interaction, I like to befriend the people who read these, some of my inner thoughts. I like active blogging and making blog friends, not just writing for the masses. So, I’ve pared down to a very select few blogs that I plan to read daily. No more trying to make the rounds to 60+ blogs each day, blogs that I know very little about the person writing.
If you feel this isn’t fair then I invite you to de-lurk and let me know who you are, a bit about you, what your blog is… ACTIVELY participate in this wonderful blogging world with me. I thank anyone who reads my ramblings but I want to know you, not just your blog. A blog rarely interests me if I don’t have some sort of connection with the owner and writer of the blog.
So, I plan to post (aka. ramble) more as my blog has run unkempt for too long now. I’m as yet undecided about what I will ramble about but it will come to me. Now that I’ve pared down and embarked on New Beginnings, I will have more to talk about and feel less overwhelmed by what should otherwise be a wonderful and enjoyable experience.
I hope I’ve not been harsh but I’m confident that a New Direction – no matter the time of year – is a good thing from time to time.
Wishing you a Succulent Sunday!
P.S. To those of you that regularly read and comment on my blog, I love love love love love you, but I think you all know that. You are the best blog friends a gal could have!