my joyful heart.

  • Seeing the sunrise
  • Saluting the sun
  • Flowers sent
  • Flowers received
  • Committing to extreme self-care
  • Rededicating
  • Going within
  • Letting go
  • Forgiving
  • Realizing
  • Sushi for dinner
  • A special delivery
  • Filling one journal
  • … starting another
  • Puppy hugs
  • Kitty kisses
  • Wonderful people all around me
  • Connections
  • Blessings
  • Seeing the sunset
  • Making someone’s day
  • Love… inside and everywhere.

This has been my day, my “Personal New Year”.

One year ago today, I had open-heart surgery at age 32 to repair a life-threatening aneurysm.  It all happened so quickly but today – today especially – I see how far I’ve come, how much good is inside me, how blessed and grateful I am and how much I have to offer this world, so much still to do.  The universe realized this and saw to it that I survived, that my heart was repaired and kept beating.  I don’t know what all I still have to do or want to do or what the Universe has in store for me but I’m realizing and learning and discovering.  Slowly, sometimes painfully. 

Always gratefully.   


Project Backsplash

As many of you know, I recently bought a house.  An old house.  A fixer-upper house.

But, it is a wonderful little house with TONS of potential and I feel that it is moving at a nice pace toward that potential.

So, what is Project Backsplash then? 

Well, this is a picture of my (very torn apart at the moment) kitchen:


If you can look past the mess that you see, you will notice MANY very beautiful cabinets. My wish is to put a tile backsplash from the cabinet-top to the underside of the cabinets. Lots of tiles will be needed for this, needless to say.

So, I’m asking all of you out there to send me a tile. That’s right, send me ONE tile, or several tiles! Just send tile! The only criteria is that it be 4 inches by 4 inches (10.16 cm x 10.16 cm). Besides that… have fun! Any color, design, patina, texture, etc. Just a 4 x 4″ tile. That’s it. Period. My hope is to have a lovely eclectic, mish-mash backsplash from all over the world! So… Please send me a tile!

This, then, is Project Backsplash!

Send tiles to:

Zazazu – Project Backsplash
P.O. Box 373
Corinth, MS 38834

And feel free to share the word about Project Backsplash with your friends!

Until next time… I’m needing some zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz’s!

Things I Love Thursday

Welcome to the first installment of Zazazu’s Things I Love Thursdays, brought to you courtesy of galadarling.


Let us begin… but where to begin?  Ah…

1.  Beautiful custom-covered literary classics like Wuthering Heights


2.  The promise of Spring around the corner and new Spring-y clothes…


3.  My evening cup of chai… it is like a constitutional for me…


4.  Facebook status updates that use quotes by L.L. Cool J.  ‘Nuff said.

5.  Amazing vintage shoes… even if they aren’t my size…


6.  Learning new things… Like at the grant-writing workshop I’m attending this evening.

7.  Daily emails from my best friend… my rock, my sanity, my lifeline.


What are you loving today?


Frost from fire…

My love for Linton is like the foliage in the woods. Time will change it, I’m well aware, as winter changes the trees – my love for Heathcliff resembles the eternal rocks beneath – a source of little visible delight, but necessary.


I love my murderer--but yours! How can I?

Sometimes I can’t imagine anything more beautifully written as passages like this, passages from Wuthering HeightsWuthering Heights is one of my all-time favorite novels.  I read it first when I was very young, several times since and am craving to read it again.  Nothing compares to it; it is the quintessential Gothic love story.   Indeed, it is perhaps even the quintessential love story, period.

When reading Wuthering Heights, I’m often amazed that a clergyman’s daughter, a woman who was never married, could have concocted such an amazing story of love that transcends – literally – everything. 

And I pray one prayer–I repeat it till my tongue stiffens–Catherine Earnshaw, may you not rest as long as I am living; you said I killed you–haunt me, then! The murdered DO haunt their murderers, I believe. I know that ghosts HAVE wandered on earth. Be with me always–take any form–drive me mad! only DO not leave me in this abyss, where I cannot find you! Oh, God! it is unutterable! I CANNOT live without my life! I CANNOT live without my soul!

I love my murderer--but yours! How can I?

Terror made me cruel...

 If all else perished, and he remained, I should still continue to be; and if all else remained, and he were annihilated, the universe would turn to a mighty stranger: I should not seem a part of it.

I will admit that I’m very picky about film adaptations of my beloved classic works of literature, particularly ones as powerful and soul-consuming as Wuthering Heights.  I’ve not yet seen a truly good, accurate version of it and doubt that I ever will.  It simply cannot be done; film is not and never will be literature.  In this case, actions do not speak a thousand words. 

That being said, I will say that the recent Masterpiece Theatre version was immensely enjoyable.  The scenery is just amazing: the moors are everything I would imagine them to be and the setting for the Heights and the Grange are seemingly perfect.  And, the cast in this version is about as close to what is in my mind as I think is possible, particularly Heathcliff.  Tom Hardy does a brilliant version.  He is not Heathcliff – no one is or can be – but he plays him nicely.  Cathy and Nellie are also very good, I think.

However, I will also say that this version includes several glaring inaccuracies and even more subtle ones.  There are things that I can’t imagine being included in the film, things that are so removed from how it was in the book that it almost seems a bit disrespectful.  So, there is that.

But, all-in-all, it is a beautifully done film that is just fun to watch and, even with its inaccuracies, it is a brilliant story to wrap yourself up in.  It doesn’t consume the soul like the book does but it will completely captivate you while it lasts and for a time afterward too. 

It is well worth owning.  I’m planning it for a Happy Valentine to me.  ♥

Wuthering Heights on DVD

Wuthering Heights on DVD

Buy it here.

Nelly, I am Heathcliff! He’s always, always in my mind: not as a pleasure, any more than I am always a pleasure to myself, but as my own being.

It would degrade me to marry Heathcliff now; so he shall never know how I love him: and that, not because he’s handsome, Nelly, but because he’s more myself than I am. Whatever our souls are made of, his and mine are the same; and Linton’s is as different as a moonbeam from lightning, or frost from fire.

Disclaimer:  My advocacy of this version has absolutely nothing to do with Tom Hardy being an amazingly stunning hunk of burning love.  Okay, his being an amazingly stunning hunk of burning love HELPS but my heart truly does belong to the story. 

Blogging to Benefit Animals

From January 13 to February 3, 2009, musician Neko Case is pre-releasing a downloadable single called “People Gotta Lot Of Nerve” but with an awesome added bonus.

Neko Case & Friend

Neko Case & Friend

Neko Case and ANTI– will make a cash donation to the amazing Best Friends Animal Society, possibly best known for being the shelter facilty that runs Dogtown and has taken in 22 of the abused former fighting dogs from the Michael Vick dogfighting ring case. For every blog that posts reposts the single, five dollars ($5!) will be donated to the Best Friends Animal Society.  Alternately, for every user of iLike that adds the song to his/her profile, one dollar ($1!) will be donated to Best Friends Animal Society. The Vick dogs, and literally hundreds of other abused animals are cared for every day, rehabilitated and when possible, adopted into loving home because of the fantastic & dedicated work of the people at Best Friends Animal Society.





Download the song and enjoy!  Have a blog??  Please post about this limited time donation and add this download to your blogs.

Download “People Got A Lotta Nerve” here: http://

And for instructions on how you and your blog can help, go here. It’s SUPER easy!

♥ Home Sweet Home ♥

Two posts in one day, readers.  But, I had to post again and share my wonderful and exciting news…

I’m a homeowner!  Me.  Myself.  A homeowner.

I signed 32 times today (we counted) – which is neat because I’m 32 years old! – and the deed and keys are now MINE!

Here is my cute little bungalow:


Officially and legally MINE!  I’m still getting used to the idea.

I was asked today how I feel now.  Let’s see… Among my many emotions…

Scared (just a bit).

Lots of feelings to feel in one day.  Wonderful though.  Wonderful day.